I Wonder
I wonder, I wonder
I wonder why each
Little bird has someone
To sing to sweet things to
A gay little love melody?
I wonder, I wonder
If my heart keeps singing
Will my song go winging
To someone who'll find me
And bring back a love song to me?
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Some Day My Prince Will Come
Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know
Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true
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I Promise
So I promise to be true to You
To live my life in purity
As unto You
Waiting for the day
When I hear You say
Here is the one I have created
Just for you
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so today was a relatively uneventful day. went to church, had sunday school, then went home. took the car and went up to first markham area and went shopping for a bit, grabbing some stuff for my grandma and aunt who are leaving for california tomorrow then back to the philippines next weekend :( so i wanted to get 'em something nice. anyway, after walking around on my own from store to store... i decided to head up to main street.
i was hoping to make it to some of the festivities of "Old Tyme Christmas" that they had going on there this weekend, but found that i was a few hours too late. regardless, there were still some stores open, so i decided to poke around. i walked into one of the stores, this old house... really cute place, and just looked around for a bit. after wandering in that old little house i walked back outside. this is the scene:
heritage town, lots of old cottage-y kinda houses, very quaint little neighbourhood really. the old-fashioned streetlights were decorated with christmas lights, and the whole street just lit up with Christmas decorations here and there. as i stepped into the cold evening, i looked up and saw snow gently falling. it wasn't windy and blowing around or anything, just pretty snowflakes slowly descending from the sky. the street was silent, as not that many cars were passing by at the time, and only a few people were actually wandering around in the cold. it was a very serene picture... and well, a very romantic one, being set in a heritage kinda town. really reminded me of something that you see in chick flicks, or shows like gilmore girls or something. and then i felt it. the prodding on my heart that could only come from Him:
with the Christmas festivities coming upon us with the coming of december, the desire to be in a relationship, to have a "special someone" has been a little more prominent. going to little streets like main street (where so many memories lie btw), seeing all the chick flick trailers, all the commercials, all the television shows, etc., it's sometimes difficult to remember why this season in my life is upon me. sometimes i feel very disney (refer to the first two songs above)... anticipating for the day when prince charming comes knocking.
but tonight... tonight was comforting. tonight was a reminder that i'm where i'm at because i need to return to my First Love. tonight, walking around main street with the snow falling and the lights all aglow, i was happy. though the pang of wanting to be there with someone was still salient, it didn't matter that i was alone. the scene was set so perfectly for a "romantic moment" so to speak, and truthfully it was... but in a different sense. it was as if God had made all that happen... set the scene perfectly, just to tell me right then and there, that He loved me. at first when i saw the snow starting to fall, i just thought, "you've got to be kidding me... i'm here on my own to just shop around and you make it like a picturesque movie scene??" and then that poke, that overwhelming feeling...
and so now... despite all the Christmas season things and all the couple-y kinda things going on, i do wait in anticipation. not for prince charming to come knocking, but for God to reveal more to me... and i trust that He's already got prince charming in mind... and that He'll send him on his way, in His time... but right here, right now, there's One that loves me more than i'll ever be able to understand... He gave His very life to prove it.
(yah, i know i'm a sap :P )